my therapy

At the beginning of the school year I took a hiatus from blogging because I felt like I didn't have time to write anymore. I was worried I wouldn't have time for school work, for my sorority, for work, for my boyfriend, and "me time". But what I've found is that without my place on the internet, I am more stressed, more emotional, and more unfocused.

During my time off, I realized how important blogging was to me. It is my place to vent, even though it's to an audience of virtual strangers. The comments help me heal and help me think, and my list of followers makes me feel like I have 170 people who care about my feelings. Spending hours on pinterest seemed like a waste of time but coming up with inspiration board fuels my creative side that is virtually untouched while writing research papers and memorizing vocabulary words for classes. I realized that blogging is how I focus on the little things in life. No longer do I stop to take a picture of a pretty sunset, or my totally awesome meal I cooked. I have begun to neglect those simple pleasures that bring me those little bits of happiness on an otherwise shitty day.

When I blogged I felt motivated to work out and stay on top of my goals since I had someone to report to. I had to tell you all about my goals and my progress; it would have been embarrassing if I had fail. Blogging made me accountable for things that I have made unimportant, like that super long bucket list of mine.

Blogging made me feel beautiful, even on the days when I would rather curl up in a ball than go out in public. Just a simple "love that shirt" comment on a post, or a "you are gorgeous" made my day. Something about random compliments from strangers always made me perk up.

And I also missed reading the blogs I follow. I miss the funny posts, and the deep ones. The ones with cute pictures of puppies and babies, and of course the ones with kick-ass giveaways. I miss feeling like I was part of these peoples lives (in a totally non-creepy way).

Some people have shrinks, some people have best friend they've known since diapers....I have this blog.

Blogging really is my therapy.